Narcolepsy Testing: Titrating Off My Antidepressants

Narcolepsy Testing: Titrating Off My Antidepressants

My anxiety and nostalgic thoughts are up. Little clues are things like wanting to cry when my kid yells at me—like he did for the entire car ride to school today—or feeling sad and knotted up inside over watching children playing, people buying food at the grocery store, or even… people in line to buy various versions of coffee and then appearing relieved when they take their first sip. My reaction is unusual. This is to be expected. I am titrating off my antidepressants.

My illness is one where my own thoughts cannot be trusted when I am in the midst of it.

I’ve been on them for years, since my divorce in 2013 sent me into the deepest depressive episode I’d ever had…

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Anti-Depressants

Anti-Depressants

Depression makes one wonder if this so-called reality that we find ourselves in is worth all the trouble it takes to live it. We manufacture guilt in obscure places, including our own antidepressants. The fact that we probably function better under the influence of brain meds makes us question whether this fancy, doctored up version of ourselves is uncovering our best self, or whether the medications are a blanket hiding the broken pieces we hold inside.